New girl on the block

[Zaxzar 45]

Hi all,

 

So. Who is Zaxzar?

 

Well great question. Can start with the what. A year ago I was 36, and went by the name of Lars. Today I am 37 and goes by the name Sarah. 

Confused? Well let me clarify. I am a 37 year old transgender woman. Been out for a little over half a year. I go by she/her. I know this is something that can be instinctive challenging when communicating over voice chats, because I haven't started voice training yet. So I forgive you in advanced if/when you get this wrong. As long it isn't done on purpose, we are just A-OK. ❤️😁👌

 

Okay. to what really matters. Who am I (at least gaming wise), and how did I end up in your community?

 

It started a very long time ago on a Commodore 64. A little later in life I got my older brothers Amiga 500. Here I played a game called "Sid Meyer's Pirates". This is where my gamer tag Zaxzar got born. So I have been using this tag at least 25+ years.

 

I have played PC most of my life, but over the last 5+ or so years, I have moved to PlayStation.

 

Of my all-time favorite games I can mention:

 

Sid Meyer's Colonization

Sid Meyer's Pirates 

Sonic I and II

Curse of Monkey Island (the first 4 at least)

Deux Ex (the original one. Wow what a story)

Zelda

World of Warcraft (the first few expansions. The panda expansion kind of killed it for me)

Diablo 1+2+3 (I moved to PlayStation somewhere after Diablo 3 got released. I started on PC in that game, but moved to PlayStation. Fun fact: I was number 1 in the world in the hardcore ranking on my monk in 2 seasons)

 

After I started to burn out on Diablo 3, PS Plus made the base game of Destiny 2 free when they released Forsaken. And I picked it up. And have been hooked ever since.

 

In Destiny I have been quite enveloped and engaged in the community. I used to run PvE recovs alot (have done around 100 Petra's run recovs for example) But this started to burn me out quite a bit, and stepped back from all of that. The people you play with that does this as a business are very very toxic. If you make a mistake in a speedrun of a raid, with a fireteam if recovs, shit really hits the fan. Because time is money. 

I liked the aspect of challenges of speedrunning, no matter the account I was on. But if the toxicity is there, it just ain't for me.

 

Been in a lot of the highly competitive clans, and also been admin in all of them.

One of the latest clans I was in was Valhalla. First I stepped down as admin, because of an increasing frustration I had with some aspects of the leadership, and the workload.

I then left them after a transphobic attack on me from an admin. I demanded an apology, and wasn't given one, and there was no consequences. For me inaction is the same as greenlighting it, so I chose to move on. This wasn't the only reason I left tho, but it did make it easy for me. The general tone of the forums, had become more and more juvenile over time. And with this, toxic.

I joined an old clan of mine, where alot of my friends where still in after, but left them because they where too PvP focused for my taste.

 

And now I am here. ❤️ 

Why did I join you? Well I joined because I heard of you through teenwolf, after he also left Valhalla. He spoke highly of you, and have had the pleasure of playing with some of you through his friendship over the years too.

I thought that if the rest of you are just half as enjoyable to play with as them, this is gonna be a good home for me.

 

What do I focus on today? I am still mainly focused on raids and PvE content. Not as much as I used to do. Lost a lot of my passion for raiding after they sunset more than half the raids in the game.

 

Will look forward to get to learn more about you all.

 

Now what questions do you have?

 

Xo 

Sarah

[Diddums 4,346]

Welcome aboard Sarah, I can't even begin to imagine the difficulties you have faced to come to this point in life but I really hope you've found happiness. You've found a good home, loads of fantastic people here 🙂 

 

If you can survive Clive then I'm sure you can survive anything 😂

[slamminbones 1,791]

Welcome to the best place on the interweb.

My eldest came out as transgender last year something I accepted and supported.

Look forward to playing destiny with you at some point.

[Antpool84 1,109]

Welcome to the madhouse Sarah! You will love it here!!

[TurboR56Mini 967]

Welcome Sarah, screw those other folks, we are happy to have you here. No questions just support we have are little fits here and there as any family but nothing like what you went through. Excited to play D2 with ya. @RenFengge and I have taken a break so we don't burn out for Witch Queen. If you are still into PC as well, we have a few servers kicking around for games like Valheim, 7 Days to Die, Minecraft, DayZ etc. Again, welcome!

[Greboth 2,721]

Welcome Sarah.  It’s always good to see new people joining FG.

 

I prefer online play (though I’m not very good at it 😂) over PvE but look forward to catching you in a party.

[Tar-Eruntalion 511]

welcome sarah to our little clan, i hope you have a great time with everyone here

[phil bottle 9,761]

Welcome to FG, we can be a little juvenile in an adorable kind of way, and we can be a little argumentative sometimes (that's usually me cough cough) but we're all here for each other in games and out.

 

Great introduction, I also started on the C64 when i was in single digits, so many great memories watching the tape deck load a game 😁

 

Hope you have a great time getting to know everyone 🙂

 

 

[GazzaGarratt 11,051]

I'm glad you found your way here, Sarah. FG is pretty unique and although i'll probably be bald in a few years with this bunch of loveable rogues, I'd like to think FG is a safe haven where we all do our best to accept everyone. You're also from Denmark, right? I remember you saying whilst we were doing a raid marathon last night...pretty much means that you're the first Dane here too! We have a few Norwegians knocking about so hopefully you get on with your friendly neighbours 😅

 

Definitely take a look around FG and get involved wherever you can. Would love to see you on some of our PC nights too. I'm assuming you still have your PC alongside the PlayStation? We play so many things that if you do have quiet breaks and need some time away from Destiny, we definitely have a lot to get involved in and around the place. Even just interacting on here, lots of stuff to have a laugh and talk about.

 

I hope you enjoy your stay at FG - Once an FGer, always an FGer! Looking forward to smashing hundreds of raids with ya after the Witch Queen launches!

[Teenwolf25 327]

37 minutes ago, Diddums said:

Welcome aboard Sarah, I can't even begin to imagine the difficulties you have faced to come to this point in life but I really hope you've found happiness. You've found a good home, loads of fantastic people here 🙂 

 

If you can survive Clive then I'm sure you can survive anything 😂

I felt that one right through the heart 💔 😂

[Leeesh13 285]

yoooo was a great pleasure raiding with ya yesterday hope to do some more soooon!!🥰

[TheMuggySpud 239]

Welcome to FG! This place has (in a roundabout way) been thriving since the MW2 days and it's imo, literally the coolest, most down to earth place on the Internet.

 

Hope you have as good of an experience as I've had ❤

[IRaMPaGe 3,238]

Welcome Sarah, definitely the right choice here. People look out for one another and are friendly and always up for playing something and helping out. 

 

I think you will enjoy it here and everyone is kinda chill and understanding. You have a rich gaming history and experience, always welcomed here. 

[Capn_Underpants 401]

Hey Sarah! I'm Sam! We raided yesterday! 😄

 

I was so high.... I don't remember the details.  I'm sorry if I said anything offensive to you!

 

I wish to play with you again 😄 

[Zaxzar 45]

1 hour ago, Capn_Underpants said:

Hey Sarah! I'm Sam! We raided yesterday! 😄

 

I was so high.... I don't remember the details.  I'm sorry if I said anything offensive to you!

 

I wish to play with you again 😄 

Haha you are so sweet. You did not in the slightest 😅👌 don't worry. You handled your down pretty good! 🤪

[Zaxzar 45]

8 hours ago, phil bottle said:

Great introduction, I also started on the C64 when i was in single digits, so many great memories watching the tape deck load a game 

 

🙂

I actually didn't have the tape deck myself. I had the big big floppy disks! 😅 I still remember the sound they made!

 

What was the commands...

Load dir

Load "Whatevergamewasobthedir"

 

Something like that? 😅

[Zaxzar 45]

Ty all for the warm welcome. ❤️

 

I really appreciate it. 😀😀

[JungleHeart 82]

Hello, Sarah! Welcome aboard! I enjoyed reading your gaming experiences. That's awesome, you've been pretty much around!

Retired D2 player here. I'm thinking of getting back to the Witch Queen hehe.

 

I'm a bit of a newbie here myself and I have to say you absolutely won't regret joining. Love the gaming discussions and fine folks here. I can express Xbox and PS opinions without getting hated on haha.

 

In any case, enjoy your stay! If I do get back to playing D2 I will post in the respective thread and maybe we can do some activity. 😄

[jordie1892 681]

Welcome to FG!!

[Rumelylady 188]

On 2/13/2022 at 8:14 AM, Zaxzar said:

Today I am 37 and goes by the name Sarah. 

 

Congrats on the excellent name choice!

 

 

(Is also a Sarah)

[Plumbers Crack 4,062]

Welcome aboard and happy birthday for two days ago? 👍

[techno 3,511]

Hello and welcome Sarah, glad I wasn't the only one who raised an eyebrow at ...too juvenile😳😉 

 

Oh and I'm old enough to have started with a zx81😞 

[Riff Machine 2,105]

Welcome to FG!  

[PrivateParts_93 220]

Huzzah!! Welcome to FG literally the kindest forum on the interweb. Hopefully meet you on the Battlefield soon ❤

[VGon_BGon48 207]

Welcome! It was awesome playing destiny 2 with you I hope we can play some diablo 2/3 sometime