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@phil bottle @J4MES OX4D Interesting article about Daniel Levy...not a character assassination piece Tottenham Hotspur: Daniel Levy prepares to celebrate 20 years as Tottenham's chairman - BBC Sport WWW.BBC.CO.UK As Tottenham Hotspur chairman Daniel Levy prepares to celebrate 20 years in charge of one of England's biggest clubs, BBC Sport speaks to those who know him well.

Thanks, @GazzaGarratt and @Plumbers Crack . (TLDR at the bottom; plus two comics from the Tumblr to help those understand my anxiety on photos) I wanted to take the time to address mental health and my own issues that have plagued me since... I can remember. The thing is, yeah, it's difficult to talk about. The non-fun stuff is, right? And, as a society, especially here in the US, we don't really ever address mental health. So, anything in that realm still carries a heavy stigma. Talking about mental health helps to normalize it. No one really thinks differently if we say something like "I have COPD/Diabetes/hypertension/etc." But, the moment the mention of anything regarding mental health comes along, it's "No. I don't want to hear it. Just stop being ______ and be normal." So, the post was more than just adding to the discussion in the thread. It was to let anyone in our own community know that they aren't alone. I have coped in my own ways for so long. I actually mentioned to a therapist last October that I don't know what or who I am if my general extreme apathy was no longer with me. I care about a very few things. I don't care about a whole lot of other things. Apathy is my coping mechanism for almost anything. We all have issues. We all have things we need to come to terms with regarding ourselves. I am not my PTSD, my depression, my ED, or my body dysmorphia. I am not the traumas that happened to me that pushed me into combat martial arts. However, and this is coming from someone who basically always chooses to "forget" and "bury" to "move on" with life, if you can't easily talk about what's going on or what previously happened, then you can't really heal. For example, it took me at least 15 years to come to terms with a certain word that I still don't like to say or type. It took 2 terrible relationships for me to really sit down and hash it out with a friend as to why I was okay (but not) about staying in them until it took 1) my friends basically intervening and 2) cops being involved. But, it really wasn't until I was honest with myself and others before I could be... this person I am now. The weird, quirky, food loving, give basically no-shits, person that Carl knows me as. So, if someone wants to ask me a question about basically anything and that question is coming from genuine curiosity and not malicious and ignorant, I'm more than happy to explain it. I hold that rule with my colleagues at work... and anyone who knows me. TLDR --> We can't grow as a human society if we pretend things don't exist. Same for a person. You can't heal and move on if you can't talk about it... especially in a safe place. Comics:

First jab but, then again, I'd be annoyed if I hadn't! 🤣🤣🤣

As there's so much doom and gloom in the media, these accounts on Twitter do a good job of summarising the good news stories as well which you don't always hear about in the media (bad news sells and all that...) https://twitter.com/fact_covid https://twitter.com/Coronavirusgoo1 Has anyone on here received their vaccine yet?

This is spot on imo. I don't really care of the setting or time period where COD is set; COD4 and MW2 were my favourite 2 COD's but COD WaW was great too as I love WW2 era and the Black Ops series has been brilliant too, especially earlier on. The fact you can't now jump on COD to chill out after a busy day at work and just have fun is a travesty. Even in MW2019, the only game mode I could play with my best mate was Cyber. Yes it was sometimes sweaty, but it was pretty chilled most of the time and you'd run into some pretty cool players and get chatting, I could easily play hours and hours of that, it wasn't full on. Cold War on the other hand is just an out and out sweat fest. I saw someone the other day on Twitter under a JGOD tweet, complaining about how SBMM has gotten so bad and strong in the game, that it's actually causing issues in their friendship group for when they play together, as in some players are decent and slow are awful, but when they play together they automatically get a strong lobby as half the team is above average and the lesser players just get destroyed so its pointless playing together and the 'worser' players have to just play together to get a lobby that matches their skill level. The lobbies should be based on ping and then randomised mostly; yes have SOME skill level active, but not so every game is a balls to the wall sweat fest. I'm not sure if the older CODs had absolutely no SBMM, but I remember playing SnD on COD4/MW2 with a full party, all having a laugh and catching up on how our weeks had been etc then you'd run into a strong full team and have to really try for 1 or 2 maps, but because it was only now and then you relished the challenge and enjoyed it regardless of losing or winning. With the last few CODs its been like this every game which just isn't enjoyable. The main reason why I just play Rebirth Island now as its a good mixture between traditional MP (respawn if a teammate is still alive) and the Warzone concept. To summarise, I don't care where its set or what the guns are, just make it less of a sweat fest so you can actually play it with mates and not feel like an MLG pro trying to win 500k every. single. game. 😅

What Lee says La...he has a way with words!

How I see it is that no one is pressured to share or say anything they want to. I would still value you as being an amazing FGer whether you did or didn't share your pictures so never feel like we would ask. I think its one where this place seems to create a safe haven for most of us that we don't feel pressured to share stuff. Its never easy sharing stuff, so for you to share something like what you just did, makes me respect you even more so. Keep doing you, La. You've been a revelation since you've been around the place, supporting people, gathering the troops for raids and I really enjoy all your discussion points. We're with you all the way mate, you've got this 👊❤

So, in my current mental state of trying to accept myself more and face my own issues head on... this is probably going to be a first in trying to explain this to someone who isn't 1) a therapist, and 2) a fellow person who suffers from such mental anguish. (Fair warning for those who are reading, this is going to be a serious post. (TLDR at the bottom) Before I get into trying to explain something that I rarely talk about with anyone who hasn't had to deal with this, let me drop this Tumblr link, which explains a lot of this very well: misspixnmix MISSPIXNMIX.TUMBLR.COM I DO NOT HAVE AN EATING DISORDER P01 I’ve been having some pretty intense internal arguments about whether or not to start posting this, but finally bit the bullet. Last year I was diagnosed with... I will start with that one of the major blessings for me during the pandemic is the requirement to be fully "masked up". No one can really see my face. Just my eyes. I can hide in baggy clothes and gym clothes basically all the time. I can stay home indefinitely. Sure, I'm an introvert. But, the feeling of constantly being judged for how I look, if I look nice or good enough, if I meet the basic standards of what people deem "sort of attractive", that pressure has been mostly gone for the last year. I am basically the only girl/woman in my family in my generation. I have 9 cousins in my generation, all guys. I grew up in a very Asian culture where the best affirmation a girl could get wasn't if she was top of her class (I was from kindergarten and up to third year in HS) or given sports awards (I collected a few because I enjoyed baseball), but if she was considered pretty. From having the perfect straight hair, to the perfect light complexion, to the whitest and straightest teeth, to the perfect nose, to the smallest waist. I was put in a few beauty pageants to please my mother, and all it did was have people pick out my physical flaws. My jaw not being narrow enough. My cheeks being too full. My height never being tall enough. My photos never being good enough and still being judged on appearance when I was not even there. My "skinniest" days was during a time when being a size 6 (which is approximately a 28" waist) still was not good enough for the matriarchs in my family. This was long before I got into actual fitness. So, it was just really rarely eating and being near skin and bones, but still having a friend who would give me a sandwich and makes sure I ate it during lunch period. I struggle with my own body image. I see a photo of myself and can point out a million and one flaws. A photo of me existing for other people that I do not deem "decent" enough is terrifying to me. Because it means I can be judged whenever. Unlike if I see someone in real life, my appearance is just a fleeting thing for that moment. Not something to be taken for judgment later. However, that is not to say that photos do not exist of me lol. A very select and curated amount of photos exist, with a handful of terrible looking ones of me, which only like, my closest friends have. My friend actually took 2 really really terrible photos of me today when I visited her, and her son wouldn't leave me alone. He just wanted to sit on my lap while I read him a book. The photos are terrible. But, I also know that she won't post them, and she also understands my mental space. So, TLDR --> I have body dysmorphia issues mixed with lingering ED issues. The Tumblr comic explains what it is like (at a more severe case). Photos of me circulating scare the hell out of me because it means people judging me indefinitely instead of during the few moments I am with them IRL. I combat falling straight down an ED hole by knowing I need to fuel myself for performance. Side note: every so often, I do think, "hey, I look not half bad today" and might take a selfie.. This is only a recent development.

So Sky are doing a group betting feature where you can have multiple people add selections to accumulator, and the payout will go equally to all who are in on the bet. Might be worth a go with a few people who bet on football? Even a good way for those that haven't bet before to try it out Let me know if you are interested and we can do one next weekend on the football Group Bet SKYBETGROUPS.SKYBET.COM

I'll probably be having my jab in the next 8 weeks. In preparation, I've decided to take up Heroin as practice😎

I saw the word 'assassination' and for a moment there I thought someone had murdered Daniel Levy😂 I was thinking at least wait until the end of the season before contemplating such a thing😎

I currently dart around the A roads of Northamptonshire in a 2017 VW Polo Gti 6C Bought a couple of years ago as I was missing the feeling of racing on a regular basis thanks to various injuries, and just wanted something that made my drive to work a bit more interesting. Was torn at the time between a couple of different cars like the Golf GTi/R and a BMW 125i/330, but saving for a wedding at the time and remortgaging the house made me consider finances and thought I needed to be a bit more sensible. It’s a great little car for me and the wife, with plenty of power and great handling and regularly makes me laugh. Definitely surprises a number of more powerful cars in the twisty bits. Only downside is that it’s not got much space in the back and pre Covid I was spending every week at the fuel pump spaffing away 50quid a time on Mr Shells finest 😂

Cheers for this mate, I didn't realise you could book it online I thought you just had to wait to be contacted. Just booked my Dad's in for the end of the month 🙂

For the sake of nudging @TurboR56Mini to talk about cars, because he loves cars... We have a r53 MINI Cooper S that we dumped a good amount of money in last year lol. We are never getting rid of it. We do actually want a classic Mini one day. Our order for the new Ford Bronco was just put in... Can't wait for that. Yes, manual for everything.. because more fun. Not efficiency. Fun. Also, to help keep me awake while driving hahaha.

😂 😂 I've got my 2nd jab on the 2nd April, apparently the 2nd one is worse so we will see... 😬😅

Ooopps!...sorry pal 🤣

If you're 56 - 59 Gary (and I truly don't know!) you can apply now Covid-19: First roadmap date approaches, and 'fundamentally flawed' PPE WWW.BBC.CO.UK Five things you need to know about the coronavirus pandemic this Sunday morning.

Pfizer here as well... I was a bit washed out for a day but then again Dan, I'm slightly older than you mate 🤣

These are fantastic. Thanks for sharing them! For us in the US regarding, we're all still doing the 65+ age groups and those who are more vulnerable due to various medical conditions. I think I'll be able to get my first dose in April. Somehow, I haven't even gotten COVID yet even though @TurboR56Mini did, and we're pretty much always within 10 feet of each other every day haha.. I also go out more than he does for gym and work.

Also feel it could be a mentality problem too. Once you win the league with ease almost and then the Champions League, it must be hard to carry on with that intensity and motivation when you're already at the top. I guess that's where Pep has the experience of winning multiple trophies with Barca and get emulate this with the City team to retain titles etc. I definitely think the whole no fans being at grounds has amplified it further. Imagine Anfield after losing 2 games on the bounce at home, yet alone 5...

DATE: 6th March 2021 SESSION: Week 4 Day 4 CALORIES: 2900kcals Bench Press 5x5@75kg+44kg Chains FEELINGS: Had a lovely session today. Nice upper body pump, nothing crazy but was lovely to get the blood flowing and feel some weight in my hands. IMG_1354.MP4

I had my logo that @Greboth made into a flag on Ali express and it’s now pride and place in my gym. thank you friend!

Another reason why I think COD will never return to its glory days is down to how the gaming landscape has changed. The golden era of COD around MW2 and BO1 was when deathmatch was still very popular and level progression was a big aspect of people's ongoing enjoyment. Someone going 30-4 was a great gameplay for a YouTube video and there were no competitive stresses. I bet veteran arena shooter players of the millennium days did not like this type of game or its format the same way many don't like COD in its current state. Nowadays, getting 30 kills is nothing and gameplay commentaries, unless they are giving tips on cheesing or OP weapons, are largely redundant. Someone even getting a double nuke barely gets any attention these days or going 100-0 whilst using knife only. Even the new nuke world record set the other day (72 seconds) didn't bat an eyelid in the community. Sadly it's all about skin culture today and looking good in-game. The e-Sport mentality is being injected into g-fulled players with a rapid meta in terms of mechanics and competitive matchmaking. You can be playing casually yet onscreen it looks like you are sweating it like crazy. Prestige also means little now - a few years ago, players were reaching Prestige 10 level 1000 just after Christmas when even I would struggle to reach just the max prestige over the duration of a year. Although I can still comfortably hold my own even in the most sweatiest SBMM riddled matches, I think a lot of the fun has been sucked out of the experience because of the way people have been conditioned to play and how the game is designed. It's more mentally exhausting than fun at times. One other factor which has diminished the fun of the COD titles pretty much the whole of the last gen was disappointing kill/scorestreaks. I can barely name any after Black Ops 2 they were that forgettable. Even ones that returned to the series just didn't have the presence, enjoyement or sheer power like they did in older titles. I really don't know how they got this so wrong and why they haven't bounced back. Could be that it's just another tiring aspect but certainly they sucked from Ghosts onward.

I cannot believe people go so triggered over this People were literally having meltdowns and threatening to 'boycott' Amazon and their services for life if they didn't amend their 'Nazi-inspired' logo😅

Sounds like a great idea and a super idea to ask everyone before we look into what to do next. I think as more and more of us are getting on, I really want to make sure they can feel like they can contribute and create stuff themselves, all for the community cause. I think this is a SUPER idea and we should get it up as an event! The game isn't going anywhere so we shouldn't be in any rush to do stuff. This is why I'm comfortable just creating more places, reinforcing more current builds because it adds to the fun of it all. I'd rather create something near the swamp to smelt the Iron to make stuff than hop via my own personal world to speed stuff up. Sometimes it makes sense but I enjoy the idea of even saying to each other 'how should we do this?'....and now we can build LONGBOATS...I think we should explore the seas over the coming weeks and watch us get obliterated together by some sea serpent. Sounds deligtful and hilarious even when I type it! 😄🤣

Currently have a GT86. Definitely my dumbest purchase, but that's what your mid 20's are for... right?