I think I know most you guys enough to be able to seriously talk about this. Even if it's just to bounce thoughts off some of ya, let me give the low down on todays happening at Drifters Casa.
So late last night I get this message on Facebook, I click to see how it is from and was kind'a left open mouth when I see it was from my very first "serious" girlfriend (ex fiancee). We were together for about 3 yrs back when I was 21 and she was 25. We broke up back about....jeez, 1992? 1993? there about's, so I have not talked to her for close to 20 year now. Well out of the blue I get this message from her last night asking how I have been, and telling me she likes the pictures I have posted of me this year etc etc. I replied back with a very brief but friendly reply saying I'm well and things are going good and I'm just getting ready to go on a trip to PA with friends etc etc.
So today she replies to that, telling me a bit about her life now and how she's going to school now to be a RN etc.... Then at the very end of the message she says....."Would you like to get together for coffee when you get back from your trip, and maybe catch up with each others lives?".
Okay let me say a few things here. You guys all know as I am very open about my past that I am now a recovering alcoholic, I don't hide it because my past is what has made me the man I am today. With that said......This is the girl that started me on the path to being a heavy drinker back then because when we broke up I took it like a ton of bricks and I was fucked up in the head for years after her, big time. On the other hand, I have to admit, sex with her was fucking amazing LOL I'm serious, we all have that "one girl" that we compare every other woman we are ever with too in bed, well this one is the one I compared everyone else too. She was just amazing in bed....so there's that on the "positive column" lol.
I just don't know though. Right now for the first time in my life I am really honestly "happy". I enjoy not having anything tying me down, being able to pick up and go where I want and do what I want and fish when I want on spur of the moment. Last thing I want to to get back into a relationship, and especially if it lead back to places I was at before with her and it fucked my life up again.
Anyway, just thinking out loud here