Sad. This is why we have our party(see my original post) at my brother in laws.
He was in the army for 10+ years, retired a Major I believe. He has about 5 or 6 ex army friends (that are now my friends) that come in from out of town. We all have a good time, share laughs, and they remember their fallen friends together.
I guess long story short, it may help for you to be with your army buddies, people that have walked in the same shoes as you.
I have many ex military friends, and as much as I try, nobody can understand them as well as other ex military people.
I wish you the best, seriously.