So. Who is Zaxzar?
Well great question. Can start with the what. A year ago I was 36, and went by the name of Lars. Today I am 37 and goes by the name Sarah.
Confused? Well let me clarify. I am a 37 year old transgender woman. Been out for a little over half a year. I go by she/her. I know this is something that can be instinctive challenging when communicating over voice chats, because I haven't started voice training yet. So I forgive you in advanced if/when you get this wrong. As long it isn't done on purpose, we are just A-OK. ❤️😁👌
Okay. to what really matters. Who am I (at least gaming wise), and how did I end up in your community?
It started a very long time ago on a Commodore 64. A little later in life I got my older brothers Amiga 500. Here I played a game called "Sid Meyer's Pirates". This is where my gamer tag Zaxzar got born. So I have been using this tag at least 25+ years.
I have played PC most of my life, but over the last 5+ or so years, I have moved to PlayStation.
Of my all-time favorite games I can mention:
Sid Meyer's Colonization
Sid Meyer's Pirates
Sonic I and II
Curse of Monkey Island (the first 4 at least)
Deux Ex (the original one. Wow what a story)
World of Warcraft (the first few expansions. The panda expansion kind of killed it for me)
Diablo 1+2+3 (I moved to PlayStation somewhere after Diablo 3 got released. I started on PC in that game, but moved to PlayStation. Fun fact: I was number 1 in the world in the hardcore ranking on my monk in 2 seasons)
After I started to burn out on Diablo 3, PS Plus made the base game of Destiny 2 free when they released Forsaken. And I picked it up. And have been hooked ever since.
In Destiny I have been quite enveloped and engaged in the community. I used to run PvE recovs alot (have done around 100 Petra's run recovs for example) But this started to burn me out quite a bit, and stepped back from all of that. The people you play with that does this as a business are very very toxic. If you make a mistake in a speedrun of a raid, with a fireteam if recovs, shit really hits the fan. Because time is money.
I liked the aspect of challenges of speedrunning, no matter the account I was on. But if the toxicity is there, it just ain't for me.
Been in a lot of the highly competitive clans, and also been admin in all of them.
One of the latest clans I was in was Valhalla. First I stepped down as admin, because of an increasing frustration I had with some aspects of the leadership, and the workload.
I then left them after a transphobic attack on me from an admin. I demanded an apology, and wasn't given one, and there was no consequences. For me inaction is the same as greenlighting it, so I chose to move on. This wasn't the only reason I left tho, but it did make it easy for me. The general tone of the forums, had become more and more juvenile over time. And with this, toxic.
I joined an old clan of mine, where alot of my friends where still in after, but left them because they where too PvP focused for my taste.
And now I am here. ❤️
Why did I join you? Well I joined because I heard of you through teenwolf, after he also left Valhalla. He spoke highly of you, and have had the pleasure of playing with some of you through his friendship over the years too.
I thought that if the rest of you are just half as enjoyable to play with as them, this is gonna be a good home for me.
What do I focus on today? I am still mainly focused on raids and PvE content. Not as much as I used to do. Lost a lot of my passion for raiding after they sunset more than half the raids in the game.
Will look forward to get to learn more about you all.
Now what questions do you have?